When I look back in time at where I came from and the journey that I’ve been on, with all the paths I walked, I find it incredible to see where I have arrived. How did I go from being a strongly opinionated Atheist living a life of full of duality and separation to becoming an awakened conscious co-creator moving toward unity and oneness?
The knowledge I have obtained was learned via the school of life first hand. I was raised in a working class blue collar Canadian home by a loving mother and typical hard working, tough as nails father who happened to be a strongly opinionated Atheist. Trust me, God was not an option. Speaking about God or even saying “Jesus” would get one a stern talking to about the subject and how it was all brainwashing.
I grew up believing there was only me alone in this great big world. Everyone has a story.
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At age 8, while at our family cottage, I was out in a small rowboat with 10 kids jammed into it with no life jackets (common in the 1970’s). I know right…
I was asked by one of the girls to jump out and see how deep it was (over 25 years later, I would marry that same girl). Without hesitation, I jumped overboard and went straight to the sandy bottom. Oddly, I was a good swimmer but was unable to get back to the surface. Something unseen was preventing me from getting there as each time I pushed off the bottom of the lake and tried to swim upwards, I found myself being pulled back down over and over.
Finally, I gave up trying and settled down while the last of the precious air in my lungs was released. My experience of drowning was one of extreme fear and struggle followed by a letting go. While standing on the bottom of the lake, lungs filled with water after the struggle, a wondrous calm came over me as I saw the beauty all around me. There was no pain involved at all as I continued to look at the ripples of the white sand and see the rays of the sun, shining through from the surface above. All anxiety was gone as I stood relaxed in some dreamlike state of mind, flat footed on the sandy lake bed.
Then the lights went dark. It was spirit that came to me while I stood flat footed calmly on the bottom of the lake (I am now aware of a previous Pharoah lifetime in Egypt so this does not surprise me). Dressed in golden armor and holding a golden spear, this female Spirit (the one known as Goddess Isis) told me that I had work to do and was not going home. She then stuck her golden spear in my third eye (which a shaman more recently told me, activated it) and sent me back here to serve humanity.
Many lightworkers/warriors have had a near death experience that altered their life path and they return to follow a new path. As a child I suffered many abuses but somehow always maintained my innocence and grew up a happy kid. I did not understand how it was possible that someone that has experienced such extreme amounts of emotional and physical trauma could seemingly be so balanced. During a more recent channel session with Dawn, I was told by the angels that I have always had a lot of angels/guides supporting me. I said to them ” I don’t know how I have been able to do so much, build houses, raise children, run a business, be an extreme adventure seeker, and help everyone I could and still be alive”. Their reply was simple. “Do you think you did all this and went through all this on your own? No, we were always by your side helping you and keeping you safe”. More confirmation of the path I have been on and the support I have had and continue to have daily.
In my mid thirties, I was strong, vibrant and my ego thought it had it all figured out lol. Wrong!
The “Event” happened in the late 90’s that forever altered my belief system. I discovered that I had a malevolent powerful entity living in my family home which I initially scoffed at. I had become aware that when I was at home, I felt tired and my mental clarity was often obscured. I was walking around in a daze and had no explanation for how I was feeling. I also heard inner voices telling me I was worthless and I was easily frustrated and aggravated.
I was drinking a lot and there was a general degradation within my marriage. I believe this energy influenced both of us to make choices we would not have made otherwise and placed thoughts within our minds. I am not saying that “it made us do anything”, we made our own choices, but we definitely were not thinking straight and were under the influence of this entity as it poured negative energy over us daily.
I called in an famous expert, familiar with clearing homes of such energies and she removed it but not before it made its presence known to us all the night she showed up to send it away. I found myself in my own horror movie dealing with the supernatural first hand. Four of us in the room saw, heard and felt its rage at being discovered as it knew it’s time there was over.
Doors slammed shut, it placed identical images in our minds and showed itself to us all in a large mirror. It was at that moment that the entire foundation I had built my belief system on crumbled to the ground. The entity was cornered and tried to hide inside our cat before it was finally sent out of our home for good and transmuted.
I realized that there was so much about this world and how it operated that I didn’t know about. From that day forward, I was determined to find out all I could. This is an extreme case dealing with a specific type of entity and not what the majority is affected by day to day but I believe that I manifested it for a reason.
I am grateful that I had the experience though, as it opened my mind up to believing that anything is possible and changed my life path (although at great personal sacrifice to my old life story). After that night, I spent the next 30 years of my life searching and seeking the truth about who I was and why I was here and what it is that I was meant to do.
The spiritual questions got answered one by one as I researched and began experiencing incredible miracles. In 2011, while sitting home alone feeling very sad, alone and lost, my entire house slowly filled with a Divine white fog. I sat in a living room chair looking on in wonderment and watched as this white fog began to fill the entire room moving from the kitchen toward me and filling the entire main floor as I sat breathing that white fog into my lungs.
There was a new moon and it was pitch black inside and outside prior. Once again I was being shown something I could not explain away. The white fog even followed me upstairs as if angels were walking within it behind me. I jumped into my bed like a frightened child and watched the light come up the stairs and down the hall and into my bedroom.
I was afraid and not understanding that Spirit had shown itself to me and was calling out to me yet again to awaken. What it takes for some of us to wake up lol. This happened two more times. Incredibly, I still was not fully awake and kept searching, not understanding the relevance of the white fog. The angels would later joke with me about how some of us are so slow to see what is right before them that they require extreme situations to occur to shift their belief system.
Next, I spent over ten years going to a weekly meditation/spiritual class only to realize I had been giving my power away to someone else and that all the answers I was searching for were within me. I learned an important lesson that when you give your power away completely to someone else, you open yourself up to another’s energy and leave yourself open to spiritual and emotional abuse.
Always ask your heart if something feels ok or not. The answer will come to you immediately. Listen to your gut as they say. My Guides started sending me soul family to assist me in my awakening further in order for me to escape the web I had unknowingly walked into which had delay my life’s work by a decade.
One day, a new channeler friend of mine (Divinely sent) and I were at a restaurant and she told me she could “clear” me as I was feeling pressure in my head, brain fog and anxiety as I often had over the years. I gave her my permission and as she spoke words of command, I felt an energy leave my field. More synchronicities.
I was instantly free and clear and felt joy pouring in. It was remarkable. I studied with my friend for two years afterwards, sitting in channel often with spirit, asking questions. Finally, I understood that these energies could be released, but how?
That friend cleared me regularly for two years but I never thought I could do it myself (still giving my power away creating separation) and was never taught how to do it either (nor did I ask). Onward, I pushed forward. I later learned how to do this myself from yet another soul that was brought (by my Spirit Guides) to assist me.
I met Dawna (a no nonsense light warrior and experienced spiritual practitioner/teacher from California) for the first time in a California hospital. Oddly it was during a “remote viewing” session of her that we would meet. I had been asked by her dear friend Angie to see if I could remotely travel there and help her somehow as the doctors had said she was so sick that she might not make it through the night.
I gave it a shot in the shower under the water where I was grounded, not really knowing what I was doing(or so I thought) closed my eyes (using my remote viewing/bi-location gift) and found myself entering her California hospital room and coming through the ceiling (weird), where I saw a powerful Demonic black robed entity hovering above her that was draining her life force. I had never done anything like this before remotely (in this life) but somehow, I knew what to do. I told it that I was not leaving and it wasn’t taking Dawna.
I had faced other malevolent entities in the past but I was always dressed in armor, sword in hand (old school) and had battled them using anger. This time I saw myself wearing a white robe. Something had changed. I had evolved to understanding that you can not defeat the dark using the energy of anger. You may win a battle but you will not transmute that being.
Using love from my heart, I raised my hands and blasted it with white Divine love and light from my open palms. I watched it roll away like a tumble weed out of sight. It tried to come back enraged and it attacked me but once again the light prevailed with ease as it was blasted away out of sight.
It left angrily and Dawna would later tell me she saw me there. She said, had I not come she would not likely have made it through the night. After this, she became my friend and spiritual mentor, fast tracking me via FaceTime sessions using her tough love technique and giving me wisdom and knowledge.
She taught me how to raise my vibration through various techniques including diet, meditation and mental toughness. She also taught me her process of “killing the ego self” and how to clear these lower energies.
Finally, after all the years of suffering, I had my own process to clear energies and began to realize there was so much more I was meant to do. I began to go to my shower regularly, closing my eyes and travelling to other places and universes. I would be shown many things and taught what to do next in my own evolution and awakening. I was finally doing my own inner work on my own and following my own spirit team and higher self’s direction.
Then came my wonderful partner Dawn, who has been my guiding light since the day I met her. It took me eight years of evolution before I would be ready for such a spiritually advanced mature woman to enter my life. Our guides decided it was time for us to meet and the rest of my old life would be history.
I learned about a new modern cutting edge form of guided Stargate meditations from Dawn who is a certified Stargate channeler. These meditations are channeled and guided by Spirit. Divine Aspects like Sananda and Mother Mary bring forward energies and DNA upgrades through the channeler that assist our spiritual development.
These meditations along with Dawn’s own brand of personalized channeling sessions, have assisted me in opening up my third eye “gifts” and brought to me a deeper understanding of who I am. Dawn taught me how to channel as well as how to communicate with my higher self (I refer to this as making first contact with the Divine and teach this method now myself).
Together we have done meditations and channeled daily which has opened my gifts more and helped to remove many layers of separation. Dawn’s channels with Spirit and channeled Reiki sessions are Divine indeed and have the power to transform any that are blessed to be in her presence during a session.
She calls forward various Aspects that bring a variety of incredible transformational energies. I’m so grateful that I get to speak directly to Spirit often and receive these energies of wisdom and knowledge.
For over 30 years I have been sensitive to lower vibrational energies (many are not, but that doesn’t mean they are not affected) without even understanding what these energies were. It was not easy going through the years of challenges but I had to go through it all in order to be blessed with the knowledge I have obtained from these experiences. I am now able to help others to lead a more joyful abundant life free of the suffering and lack.
I understand that within the spiritual community, the area that I work within is either not often discussed/ known about or people believe that nothing can touch them because they are the light. Many just don’t want to focus on this area fearing it will create fear itself.
In my experience, we all have both sides within us (light and shadow) and we can all benefit by looking at both sides. It’s part of doing “Shadow Work” which assists us with our ascension to 5D. Almost everyone can benefit from various forms of clearings and energy work (after all, we are energy).
We have all had many lifetimes where we accumulated lower energies, attachments, layers, limitations and traumas. In fact, we also carry those of our ancestors within our own physical and multidimensional DNA. We had others during a multitude of incarnated lifetimes, use spells and curses against us and forced vows and pledges upon us. We also forced these on others as well as we played those roles of dark beings ourselves. In fact, often we even agreed to have these energies, entities, and limitations attached to us in our incarnations. Why would anyone sign up for a lifetime of difficulty and suffering?
To experience and to evolve the soul through all the experiences of the different soul aspects incarnating over and over again to broaden the Souls understanding of what opposites are in this bi-polar world. One can not know and understand day unless one has experienced fully, night. The soul is a fragment of the eternal energy of the Divine Creator/Source that is relaying back all we experience and is placed into this body suit willingly in agreement with the blueprint and paths laid out that we ourselves agreed to. We are just experiencing this life in a bodysuit and will return home when it expires or when we agreed to. We will come right back and do it again excitedly just as soon as we can and evolve some more.
We’ve had “terrible” things done to us and done “terrible” things to others in order to have these experiences and this evolution. Fortunately, this is the lifetime we get to end it all, dissolve, cut and sever, end the programs, release the ancestors and release the limitations holding us down from remembering that we are indeed all Divine and equal. Each and every one of us without exception, is a Divine Co-Creator walking in a body suit and we are all awakening in our own time.
We get to end our ancestors programs, cycles and all the karma. They are all watching and cheering us on. We are assisting seven generations prior and seven generations into the future also. This means the work that we do as individuals affects the ancestors that have now reincarnated again into new bodies and walk beside us as well as those not born yet.
We get to let it all go and raise our vibration and theirs toward Oneness and Enlightenment. Yeah to that. We are as “Alcazar ” says, moving towards unity and oneness but we are not quite there yet. The duality of light and dark still exists (as Kryon discusses often) and until it dissolves completely, I will be helping humanity to release these layers of separation with gratitude.
